Today's prompt for the Blog Every Day In May Challenge is 'The thing(s) you're most afraid of.'
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I am afraid of:
Enclosed Spaces- I am probably most afraid of being in an enclosed space which I am unable to immediately free myself from. I often get claustrophobic in such situations, and start to panic and freak out. I've panicked in a car wash, in an MRI scanner, trapped in the back of a parked car on a hot day when the child locks were accidentally on, and even last week in a small open lift when I was surrounded with walls and a clear door. I don't usually have a problem with lifts, unless they're particularly small/full, in which case I'd rather take the stairs.
Spiders and Daddy Long Legs- I have a bad fear of spiders, and I'm terrified of daddy long legs. I will scream if I see either, and can't relax or go to sleep until the horrible insect has been removed from the room by my Dad or another obliging person. Daddy long legs are the worst because they always fly at me; they're just horrible! Last year a spider the size of a hamster dashed across my floor at two in the morning; I ended up perched on my chest of drawers absolutely terrified. My sister hoovered it up when it ran after me in to the hallway!
Being alone forever- I often think about the future, and I worry that I'm going to be alone. That I'll never find a person who wants to put up with me until we're old and grey and moaning about the price of milk. I'm independent, I like my own company, and I don't mind being alone sometimes, but I don't like being lonely. I don't want to be one of those old people who's all alone in the world.
Dying a horrible death- I think it's perfectly normal to be afraid of dying an unnatural death.
I'm afraid of drowning, even though I'm a water baby that loves the sea. It's another fear of being trapped and suffocating; I think. Does anybody remember the scene in Pearl Harbor where the marines are trapped in a flooded/sinking submarine? Being trapped and knowing you're going to die like that is one of the most horrible things I can imagine.
I'm equally afraid of dying in a fire, whether it's in a burning building or some other fatal blaze. Nobody wants something like that to happen to them.
I fear dying in a car crash / road accident. There are so many fatal accidents on the roads these days, that reckless drivers make me nervous. Three years ago, three of my work colleagues crashed a mile from work on their way home, and one of them was instantly killed. He was eighteen. I didn't personally know the guy who died, only in passing, but that accident affected me, and shocked me to the core. I couldn't get my head around how a life can end just like that. I don't think I've felt safe in a car since.
I am terrified of public speaking. I've never had the confidence to address a group of people, no matter how small the crowd. When I was at secondary school and had a presentation to do, I would be so scared I would stay off sick to avoid it!
And, I guess I also fear never being pain free again. The pain I'm constantly in hasn't improved in twenty months, and I've never been given a clear answer to how long I may have to live this way, and if my pain will ever go away. I have to believe that this life is only temporary, but I do wonder if this is it, if this is how my life is going to be from now on until the day I die, and that thought scares me. I don't want to live like this forever; I have to know that I will be able to live a normal life again in the near-ish future.
I have a few other little fears, but these are the ones I have a particular phobia with.
What are you afraid of?
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cockroaches, spider monkey trees and yep to public speaking (i resigned recently and my farewell speech was 'its been a blast'...seriously - i had really nice things to say but when everyone looked i said that like danny la rue) x
ReplyDeleteCockroaches are horrible, too. I agree with you on that. The trees are a new one! I would have reacted exactly the same. I'm like a deer in the headlines, get scared, and mumble something before running away x
DeleteI hate spiders and flys and clowns that's about all I'm scared of xx
ReplyDeleteI can relate to all of that! I've not been able to see clowns the same way since reading IT! xx
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